Post by Fuukami I. Iryna on Jan 13, 2013 17:47:37 GMT -6
Friends of mine? Friends of mine... that I can enjoy some nice snacks and have some girl talk together... I've never had one. Those of my age tend to keep a distance from me since I was young, most likely because I was born into wealth. I've never had person about my age whom I can consider as a "best friend". The ones that I can freely converse to are my mother, my butler Katsura-san, and the house workers. My father... there are still a long distance between me and him, even though he's the one who provides me everything I need for my sports ambitions. He's rather aloof and rarely comes home early, if he can even go home at all. That birthday party I planned for him... I know it's selfish for me to demand his presence, but... I tried to hold myself back during the phone call, and then Ayumu-kun came along, I couldn't restrain myself anymore. I'd never thought... I'd expose such vulnerability in public like that.
That incident just keeps popping up in my head. I never forget the cloudiness of my eyes, the chilly feeling throughout my body, the warm sensation of his body, like a pillow, the scent of a cheap air freshener in that taxi. I was... helpless. Like a lost kitten caught in the rain.
Thinking about it makes my heart throb again. I clutch my chest by reflex and keep looking down at the table, taking heavy breaths. Maybe I'll have a checkup again, just to make sure everything is all right.
While trying to catch my breath, I utter a reply: "Well, maybe, if I manage to... have somebody. A girl, of course, so we can all talk about feminine topics. If that's the case, you cannot come along, got it?"
I'm not sure if that sly remark were necessary. I could have stopped at just "somebody" to make myself clear. Or is it because I want to focus away from my recent train of thought?